fredag 23 augusti 2013

"Forever alone"

Good evening!♫ 
I really dislike the "Forever Alone"-saying well it was funny the first 10 minutes but when people use it now I'm like STOP RIGHT THERE.

Anyway, school was fine, we went to a trip to Drottningholms Slott and ate and had it really sweet!♡ 
I love my class ;u; even if I look very different and my appearence changes quite often, they accept me and most of them respect me. I'm really lucky to be in such a class!

Anyway today I'' going to take a sweet shower, bake something, watch a cozy movie night with my family and then play games with friends!(o◞ิ‿◟ิo) 
Also read a manga by Ai Yazawa I will talk about later!!

Have a great evening!!☆ 

onsdag 14 augusti 2013

Dont worry be nyappy!!!!!

I am so happy right now. Everything seems just good and I love my bandmates and I have such exciting plans for the last days of my vaction. School starts at Tuesday next week for me! Lucky!☆ 
Tomorrow I'm going to meet my friend Sepideh, she's really funny and a NICE person! 
And on Friday me and some really sweet friends are going to eat dinner and watch Monsters University!! 
And then on Saturday Im going to have supernice "fika" with Jonna/Glitterhelgon!

Aaaahh really, life becomes so much better and happier if you have things to look forward to!! It's like a confirmation for that "you arent worthless or just living and losing time". 
Do whatever makes you happy. I try to live by that as much as possible, but sometimes you forget what makes you happy and focus on the negative.


tisdag 13 augusti 2013



This week I take lessons at the Royal University of Technology (Kungliga Tekniska Högskolan)
and they're really interesting and fun! SCIENCE is COOL hehe!
I am absolutely fascinated by Space matters and Physics. I also like chemistry, but only when you can freestyle and do whatever the fuck you want with different materials °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°

Today I'm going to another lesson in the evening, and I was supposed to go to our bandmeeting at Nellie's house but I fucked up and would miss the lesson if i was there... And I feel really bad about it since that sweetheart baked cookies and everything!! I know you guys understand me.

Remember kidz SCIENCE is FUN ♡ by @tacticalmikuru
It feels like I sometimes lost sight of what I really want to do with my life.
I feel hopeless, and stuck, and frustrated because I really want to do so much things but I don't have the courage or money or talent or...
I should just, dont give a fuck anymore and do whatever I want ok!! I need to become stronger,
I feel really disgusted about myself right now, and I dont even know. Gosh I'm sorry for this confusing post  。゚(゚ノД`゚)゚。 !

Well, Im off!☆

torsdag 8 augusti 2013


Ohmygod the Slayer concert yesterday was.. So epicly good I cant even describe it... I just love people doing what they love, dressing how they want and ohgod I seriously wanted to steal all their clothes. Supergr8 battlejackets, jeans vests and spiky leather jackets with many good band patches on. 
And then Slayers clothes were awesome too. Kerry had really big chains on his pants, the guitars were so beautiful and ghfhfgh. 
I've only listen to 8 songs, but those were one of the best thrash metal songs I've heard. I want to thank my friends William and Affe for introducing me to this supernice metalworld uvu<3
Today Im going to Line to chill and such! Hehe she's so sweet so I think I will be kinda nervous but schhh( ॢꈍ૩ꈍ) ॢ
Also I have this huge pain in my neck and back from headbanging so much... 

onsdag 7 augusti 2013

Feeling so glad again

My fellow blogreaders! Do not fear thou I am happier and motivated than ever!
If something is wrong, do always face your fears and do something about it.
Do not wait for something to happen or forgiveness, because you have to earn it.

I do not think myself as shy. But in some situations I am the most cowardly person ever existed. And I'm not proud of that and want to change. 
Ok now to tomorrows/todays plans!
I'm gonna go see Slayer on Gröna Lund with a lot of friends! Was thinking of looking superdolly so I stand out in the crowd ;))♡ 
Theeeen I will do nothing ok bye 
(Jk i look forward to thursday so much<33)

måndag 5 augusti 2013

Party party logan pizza

Today was such a good day!!
I love food and especially pizza. If you treat me to pizza or eat pizza with me I'm your friend forever. If you also have an jumping uhh jumping math then Im also your friend. And if you have a pool too. And nice car. And a racerboat. And a big house. WHICH MY FRIEND WHO HELD THE PARTY HAD?! Her name is Mimmi and she's so nice?? I really love such sweet, friendly people uvu♡ 
So when I woke up I felt like someone punched me on my head and drank some coffee and did a SWEET sandwich and felt kinda better! 
Then I experimented with my makeup, since I felt ugly as fuck these past weeks and well, I still feel disgusting haha!

I also watched and spent precious time with one of my closest friend Anso and Tony Stark and Carro when we watched Wolverine and had some cozy time with movie and taobao! Will write avout Wolverine later since that movie is my new favorite.

söndag 4 augusti 2013

Pride, Anxiety and Mulan!

Today when I woke up I felt as bad as I did yesterday!
I think it's the "Närcon-sjukan" (Närcon is a swedish convention I was at last week and "sjukan" means like a sickness) I've catched. But kinda late haha? I thought you were supposed to get it right after coming home, but I was so full of energy and met friends and all that when I came home. So it hit me hard in the face NOW I guess...
Anyway, I was so tired and just wanted to lay down and half-sleep the whole day, but I took a cup of tea and then changed clothes and walked out to meet Pella and Love to watch the PRIDE parade!
The Pride Parade is basically a bunch of LGTB(homos and such) folks who gets their "Go wild go crazy show off as much as you can"-day and then they walk in a loooong parade through the city! 
It's so fun and I was so happy since when I see other people doing their thing, being themselves and be happy -- I become happy myself! (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥`)
Afterwards we walked around and looked at clothes and stuff, I found this really nice supercool leather jacket that I must buy wow, then I met some other friends aaaaaaaaaand then I took the train home hehe!

I mostly always carry around a baseball racket when going out as a "boy" and got some comments about it, like, "are you gonna beat up somebody hmm?" and I get kinda sad because... For me, it's just fashion. For them, I'm someone "dangerous". I hate it. I want to dress however I like and not get comments (except for good ones!)
Luckily I was smart enough to say things like "Oh this? I'm gonna play some baseball later heh B)" or tell them the truth. 

Then something here at home happened and I got really, really sad and by hands couldn't stop shaking. I also thought of my friend who I think dislikes me right now, and I got some kind of panic-attack... But I took another cup of tea and watched Mulan, then I guess it became better. I love Mulan so much you don't understand ಥ_ಥ

fredag 2 augusti 2013

-insert cool and deep quote here-

Today I woke up and I felt so bad that I had to cancel my plans for today...
I hate when that happens because I hate to make my friends sad or disappointed..(╯︵╰,) 
I treasure friends because they are who you spend fun time with, It's not fun at all to be alone. Last summer I only had 1 person I could hang out with since I felt comfortable with her. But she was going to Spain almost the whole summer and I was left alone. NOT FUN
So I'm so grateful for all the new friends and memories I've gained now. I have new best friends, new awesome friends and a great, great band.
Me at Närcon some days ago~
And right now I'm listening to the GazettE, been listening to 'em really much this week?? and some oldies from LM.C (Like OM Juliet and BOY&GIRL etc)
Also... I have this new fierce passion for Japanese Hip Hop.
Just listen this is gr8!!!

torsdag 1 augusti 2013

I'm sorry but...

...but I just can't stop looking at this GIF

like... that is so me I cant even explain or think right I'm just laughing my ass off
at him
then failing miserably.
and then he just lies there... and thinks about how he hates himself
i feel you my brother i understand you

ok now Imma sleep, bye

First post yo!

Okay my Sweetelysweeteners! 
I've started this blog now
Done some design and pimped my crib!
It's time for me... to start my plan... to take over the world!!Ψ(`▽´)Ψ
No I'm joking, joking~! I'm too goddamn tired to write right now, do you know
how exhausting it is to choose template, write decent descriptions and such? 
so I'mma dump an oldie and maybe watch some?? free! and just chill. 
Because tomorrow I'm gonna party! And I mean party as in meeting a friend and watching movies and talk and eat
Will write more tomorrow! 
ps make sure to follow me you wont regret it yo
i swear to god you wont regret it do it or you will regret not doing it

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